Sick, Sick, Sick

Well... I've been sick... I think between the heat and extreme anxiety I've become a ball of sleeping illness.

But I feel better at the moment... been drinking water and Gatorade. I ate today. I also looked at the things that are freaking me out. The little guy is reverting to his old summer ways of not eating... but we have a checkup on Monday at Hopkins so we can talk to the folks there then about it. I really thought I screwed up my interview... well I really could get by with my present job... By the way I GOT THE PROMOTION! So now of course I'm stressing about the added responsibility... should have thought about that first... but I've got a great GM, so again I shouldn't be too worried. I had an issue with a friend that I put off too long addressing because I was afraid she wouldn't be my friend... but I finally dealt with it and as sad as it sounds I will live if she chooses never to talk to me again, and I won't be hiding how I feel any more which is worse for me. Of course the biggie for me is that today is July 10th... Thursday July 10th, and while all the horrible last time dates have been ticking off and reminding me far too vividly of the life I had 5 years ago... I am still here... and I get to have more memories, hopefully much much better ones. I think in many ways I'm a far better person now having lived through those days in July 2003... I don't think I would ever have grown up the way I have... I just wish the price was not the death of someone who I love.